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University is Hard

 

 

Am I the only student who doesn't know what to do with themselves once they've completed all their assignments? Assignments are out of the way and I feel like a lost soul.

University starts again on Monday, round two of second-year *ding ding ding*. Going back to university definitely feels like stepping into the ring blindly. You never know if it's going to kick your ass or how long you'll be in the ring for. I'm counting down the days until graduation, I want to look so cute in my cap and gown.. yes these are my priorities do not judge me.

Recently my heart hasn't been in university, my confidence in my abilities are no longer there and I'm scared I'll disappoint my family and myself. I constantly pray for better understanding and wisdom and I know God has really been with me throughout this journey so I just have to keep believing he won't leave me.

"Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you." - Deuteronomy 31:6

Maybe this is my problem, I continue to put my belief in myself and not God. If life has taught me anything it's that I will not succeed by my own abilities. I guess it's just hard to remember that sometimes. I guess as they say 'I got lost in the sauce'. My goal these next few months is to work hard and smart, believe in both myself and God and understand that I can only do my best and if that isn't good enough it's fine.

Anyways as the new term begins I wish everyone the best, as university can be hard, lonely and exhausting at times but don't give up. All the late nights and breakdowns will be worth it! The finish line is literally so close.

- Jacq

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  1. YEEES! Love it! Jacq this was well written and I completely understand your position. And the realization of how things are possible through God is just awesome. I have just recently graduated from university November 2017. If I have to be honest with you, I didn't feel any different than how I did when I graduated. I have been looking forward to THAT day! the graduation for 3 years. I did not take time to appreciate, learn and embrace my days at university. You're absolutely right, university is hard and can be lonely but it is within that solitude you discover who you are and where you're going!

    If I could give you an advice which has personally changed me forever is! "Do not live life with an analogy of a journey, as if there's a certain destination we have to arrive to. Life is like music; when you play an instrument or hear a song you're not in a hurry to get to the end. The whole purpose of the music is to play or dance. When you go on a night out and dance with your friends, you don't aim to finish dancing at a particular spot. The whole purpose of the dance is the dance."

    What I am saying is JacQ, you're meant to sing and dance to the music of life! Trust God's provision! Blessings are on your way!

    From Tan,

    PS. I plan to use my advice to write a blog based on it soon and more to come.! I am new to this blogging stuff but I have a few, check them out if you can.

    https://gmanmadivani.wixsite.com/thepotentialists/single-post/Faith-In-the-Dark

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    1. Hey Tan, thank you for reading. Once again you're right. I rarely live in the moment as I am more excited about the end goal which I am trying to change. I will definitely check your blog out later today. You can message me if you want to discuss blogging as I've also just started. xxx

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