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My Suicide Attempt Story



Last year I opened up for the first time about my suicide attempt a few years ago. Shortly after posting this video I attempted to commit suicide 2-3 times. I originally started making YouTube videos as a way to avoid thinking about my problems. This wasn't a good idea as I became extremely obsessed with finding ways to avoid thinking about my feelings. Once I had nothing to run to I became extremely depressed and hit rock bottom. I've never been someone to open up about my feelings which is usually why I go downhill so fast. I found that this video helped everyone but me.

I came up with a series on my channel called 'No Secrets' the series included personal stories about things I have experienced with mental health and also experiences which have caused me great pain. I decided to do this series as a way to help both me and others. Being someone who is so private it is so easy to let everything bottle up inside and I did not want to do that anymore. Some might ask why don't you just talk to someone in your life and the answer to that is I know there are people out there who feel alone and have no one they can turn to so I wanted to be that face others can relate to, I want to inspire others to be bold!

This is another reason why I began my blog. I truly feel as though 2018 is my year, it is the year that will bring nothing but joy and success. I want to be able to share my journey with others and also look back throughout the year to see what I went through and how I overcame certain situations.

I'd appreciate if you'd watch the video and let me know what you think of both the video and my channel.

- Jacq

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  2. Great read. I can related to a lot of what you have written. I am happy you realize that your experience can benefit others. I see that this was written a few months ago, I am curious to see how this endeavor is coming along?

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